It is cold and rainy out tonight. Reminds me of late winter early spring. The most depressing time of year if you ask me. Anyways, after dinner I sat around fiddling away on my computer and started to feel bored and lonely and rather contemplative about the upcoming summer months so I ended up going out to buy food to binge on. It wasn't terrible. I ended up getting a quart of ice cream, a jar of nutella, and a butterfinger candy bar. I ate maybe three quarters of the ice cream, DID NOT EAT THE ENTIRE THING which is a total first for me. I had maybe half the candy bar, and then (eek!), half the jar of nutella. When I felt full I thought the best thing to do would be to throw the leftovers away so I did that just to make absolutely certain I wouldn't go back to them later on.
In general the binges are getting smaller. I kept a log of all my episodes in the past month and here is what I've noticed:
-67% of binges were in response to a strong emotion
-73% of binges occurred on rainy days
-88% of binges lead to domino binges (meaning I usually binged the following day b/c I'm so bummed about the last one)
-A whopping 95% of binges occurred just after engaging in some sort of screen time (e.g. television, computer...)
-92% of binges occurred on days when I went to the gym
-83% of binges occurred on days when I weighed myself
-100% of binges occurred on days when I restricted
So, keeping all of this in mind for future reference will be very useful indeed because it tells me what I need to watch out for. So I will stay extra mindful on days that are rainy, days that are moody, days that are lazy and full of screens, gym days, restriction days, and scale days. Dammit that's a lot of days.
Anyways. I'm not getting too hung up about this slip. I figure I learned a little something from it.