FUCK MY LIFE! Forget everything I said about starting fresh because IT DOESN'T MEAN SHIT. The only thing that matters is getting through these ridiculously unbearable days without doing something dumb and self-destructive.
I wish I was an alcoholic. Or addicted to crack. I wish I stole things impulsively or raped someone or strangled a puppy because at least that way I could be put away for my behavior. Unfortunately for me, bingeing is not against the law and probably never will be so I'm up against a losing battle.
I need to start taking my medications more regularly. I dunno why I think it's okay for me to go off them. It never is.