Thursday, December 23, 2010

The lack of structure in this post is frustrating

I have a sore throat which is just horrible. I guess this means I'm getting a cold. That sucks because colds last for like a month and I don't want to feel sick for a month. I sort of forget if being sick is makes not bingeing easier or harder... I must go back and look at some old sick posts to find out.

I have watched The Proposal on Netflix instant three times in the last 48 hours. I mean, I usually enjoy romantic comedies just as much as the next girl but this one is just too cute I have to keep watching it again and again.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, which means my family and I go to the Kramer's house after dinner for our annual gingerbread decorating hootenanny. Shocker- I don't feel like going so I've decided that I need to come up with a plan for how to get out of it. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE THIS TRADITION of celebrating the holiday with family friends (their daughter, Ariel, went to nursery school with me!), but sadly my eating disorder is not so keen on it.... especially since the last time everyone saw me I was almost 40 lbs. skinnier. Yeah yeah nobody cares about my weight more than I do and I shouldn't let body image issues control my life and blah blah blah I know I know. I don't care. I've come up with two possible explanations to give my mother about why I can't go. Ha, neither of them are the truth by the way.

Option 1: Tell her I'm simply not up to it this year, and that I need to have a peaceful and solitary evening to gather myself and my thoughts for all the fun on Saturday.

Option 2: Act really sick and tell her to send my regards and apologies to everyone.

I kind of like Option 2 the best. Faking sick is always a safe bet. I mean, who can argue with the whims and inconsistencies of human health? Also it's not entirely false. I really am getting sick.

I was looking back at my posts from this month and I realized that what I said yesterday about having gotten down to consistently only bingeing once a week is total BULLSHIT. Three weeks ago I had that whole babysitting fiasco where I pretty much ate every pint of ice cream in the state of Massachusetts for like... three days straight. Then I'm sure that since then I've binged at least four times here and there. So I take back everything I said about making progress. I'm still a mess.

I really need to change the name of my blog. I was thinking about it yesterday and my brother joked that instead of 'Working on it' it should be "Almost done with it'.

1 comment:

  1. I see that you've changed it and I almost thought you had closed it. lol