Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Christmas miracles and stuff

Well I called Tulan this morning and she didn't need me to work at all today so I spent half the afternoon sleeping and the other half cleaning my room. IT LOOKS AMAZING. Dr. Gordon would be so proud. I saw her yesterday and we had a nice little session. She said she wishes she could see me more than once every two weeks, but it's just too expensive!! I feel bad reminding her of that but it's the truth. Anyways, she said I could e-mail her or leave a voicemail message over the holidays just to let her know how things are going and if I'm doing alright. Speaking of the holidays...


My auntie Sarah is coming, probably on Christmas Eve day. It snowed yesterday! It was just the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. I think I've finished all my holiday shopping... I wouldn't mind getting my dad something else in addition to the book he asked for - biography of Keith Richards. Maybe he'd like another solar radio or something. His last one broke. I feel like my dad is the hardest person to shop for out of everyone in my family. It's because his attention span and memory are really bad so anything you buy he either forgets to use or just loses. I hope somebody gives me a Starbucks gift card. I don't even want to think about how much money I've spent on coffee in the last two months. It's obscene. Georgia really likes the song I'm playing right now. Guinea Pigs can listen to and appreciate music can't they? It's Somewhere Over the Rainbow... the really pretty Israel Kamakawiwo'ole version. She's all chiripy and happy about it. Wow. This paragraph is just all over the place.

I think I'll go running again today... or more like tonight. It's already dark out. Yesterday I had the most amazing running experience. I actually ventured out into the snowy weather and ran for twice the amount of time I did last week. Everyone was like you're crazy running out in the cold like that and I was like are you kidding me it's so much fun! I'm so proud of myself for getting back into exercise and appreciating it for what it is and what it feels like in the moment, instead of simply using it as a weight loss strategy. I've cut myself off from real exercise for so many months because everybody told me it was the only way to kick the addiction and now that I finally have it back I feel like a free man. Woman I mean.


  1. I am so proud of you for using running as a positive thing and not a disordered thing. I still avoid the gym because i know i am not ready for that yet!

    i'm glad that you are doing well!!! stay strong babe!!!

  2. Thanks! Yeah, I'm boycotting the gym because I think it makes people overly body conscious and image obsessed. Even if I fully recover I doubt I'll ever be a regular gym person.