Okay guys, now I know you've heard me say it before and I know it's probably starting to sound repetitive and blobby- but I have to start working harder at this recovery thing because I'm losing the battle right now. I just cannot stop binging. I feel like that little girl in The Exorcist. The devil possesses her- one day she's just peeing on the carpet and the next she's throwing up all over people and her head spins around 360 degrees.
In a couple minutes I'm going to sit down and fill out a weekend planning sheet so that I can stay nice and in control until Monday. Does anyone have any advice? I mean obviously I have my list of DBT coping skills and my mom is a super awesome support for when I feel urgey but I feel like it might not be enough.
Tomorrow at program is going to suck since I'll feel like restricting after today but you know what? That's what I get for being such a fucking idiot.
Anyways, thanks everyone for putting up with my crap. This blog must be awfully frustrating to read. It's like, "JUST GET BETTER ALREADY!!!!!!!"