Saturday, March 5, 2011

I'm better now

I take back that last post I wrote. I was in a super bad mood but that doesn't mean anything, really. I say/write a lot of things I don't mean.

You know what all you guys should do right now? Go out and rent 127 Hours. The movie that James Franco was nominated as best actor for this year. It's based on a true story about this guy named Aron Ralston who goes out hiking on Blue John Canyon in Utah one day and he falls into a slot canyon and gets his arm pinned by a boulder. He stays stuck this way for 5 days before finally doing the unthinkable to save his life. It's just... the most inspiring film I've ever seen in my life. I really need for you guys to see it so you'll know what I'm talking about. It's a little gruesome at one point, so if you don't have a strong stomach for blood and stuff you might want to prepare yourself a bit. I'm serious. I used to pride myself on how well I could tolerate scenes with blood but this one scene had me absolutely cringeing and heaving. Now that I've warned you though, I will honestly proclaim that Ralston is my new hero. He makes me want to be a better person.

Anyway though, like I was beginning to say, I feel bad for being so negative and antagonistic a few hours ago. I won't give up on recovery or whatever, but I am rather sick of the weekly shit sessions with Marci and Dr. Gordon. I hate that they're both so much skinnier than I am.


  1. I personally didn't think you were negative or antagonistic on the last post. You're frustrated as I would be in the same situation. So no need to take anything back. People get on our nerves, we vent, that's life.

    Perhaps with the meal plan, she's aiming high to make sure you actually eat ? Have you asked why 2500 cal/day ? I do find that to be a lot, so what's the logic behind it ?

  2. I think the logic behind the meal plan is that if I eat enough/a lot, I'll never feel deprived and therefore won't binge. APPARENTLY, if you do this long enough, you WILL lose weight slowly but I find that super hard to believe.

  3. It's okay to be in a bad mood! I understand you hating how both are "skinnier" than you too. That's how I feel, as you know.
    I don't think I'll be watching that movie ever!!

  4. Well Eliza, that's news to me. I would think you just needed to learn to make better choices so that you won't feel deprived therefore won't binge. But hey I'm no nutritionist or doctor ! (._.) I guess you might have to do it long enough to see the results ? Hum.